my dissertation outline won't work.

I hate technology. I hate the fact that i depend on it so much. (then why you want to write it?)
I like to be able to remember the lyric of a song, to remember the movement of yoga, to remember the steps of a dance.

i hate internet, i can never find the stuff i want on the internet. I can't find the stuff i want to know in the wikipeida. i just got lost.

new media art are boring and difficult to make. (it is sad because the data in it is stuff that people are not bothered to remember) probably when i go back to taiwan i am going to protest in front of the memory stick factory and accuse them of letting us to forget and to escape.

apparently Lynda, a very warm, big australian woman who is my dissertation superviser, like her kid to play with paper mache.(instead of playing with computer game and equipments that are expensive and sometime not very creative at all.)I like art that is simple, recyclable, organic as well.

but the fact is that I live in a society which creates alot of technology, and it need people to use them, it provides jobs and it need ideas.

art is something that everybody can afford to do? no. I want to do art, how can i sustain myself then?

while in the first world the economy of creative industry prospers, in my world the creativity is not a economy yet. and i am not sure if it ever should be.




I went to a tutorial with Lynda yesterday.
there are some problems with my dissertation plans she said:

1. my dissertation plan don't have a focus.
2. it is impossible to answer the question i set up -Is New
Media Art a subject of technological capitalism, Or is
New Media Art a chance for renovating a more
democratic, positive society?


to answer her criticism. yes, maybe i don't have a focus. and i often trap in binary thinking of good and evil.