A reflection and documentation of what I have done after the meeting with Lynda on
14 January Monday
I dig deeper into my motivation of writing this dissertation. My past frustrating experience with technology art, curiosity to the meaning of art and also seeing festival as an activism that will bring some transformation and reverberate a new culture and identity.

15 January Tuesday
And start to write a blog - “I like people not art and machine”, in an attempt to find the question I want to ask. I was angry about art being regulated and have to fit into the purpose of commerce. But then again, maybe good art or bad art are best judged by if it can serve its purposes. (http://peoplenotartandmachine.blogspot.com/2008/01/words-are-not-big-enough.html)

16 January Wednesday
cultural debate: revisiting modernity
realize modern is never a fix stated or an ideology. It is what is happening now. And we have been trying to grasb what is the essence of the time happening now.
The book – we have never been born modern. Sees modernity as a state of perfection never worked out and we are still experimenting with rationality, science, possibility of equality, universality, democracy…

17 January Thursday
dissertation workshop: sharing your ideas with classmates. My dissertation covers two topics. And they are…
Topic one: Frustration of contemporary art world
Topic two: Frustration of technology
a day of mad research in the periodical section of LCC library:
Afterall, a article on contemporary art as a story told by jaff wall- important 60s, artists went into education, social services etc…
Another article on Curational practice by Peter Osborn.
Cultural trends, an article on art policy, museum business
Cultural studies, I’m interested by an article that use auto-ethnography style of writing her own ethnical experience. It is called Violence UNSEEN.
Theory culture & society, critical sociologist, Marx, technology, Maurizio Lazzarato.
Hyper Media and Multimedia, crazy tech invention and use of media
New media and technology, network relationships.

My note: I found critical writing on technology is interesting. But new tech invention and education are boring. It seems like the world of technology belongs to the boys, also the place for invention belongs to the boys too. When woman are in the room, we seems to be at a wrong place. But at same time be seemed with curiosity and fascination. Some techno woman have a androgynous quality, or say, lack of femininity. I meet some woman who learn computer stuff on their own. Probably the teaching material is easily accessible. There is more freedom for people to grasp the information, but not necessary a good environment for people of different personality to grow, develope and nurture themselves. There are many woman do well with hardware and software and are focused. But their ability is rarely recognized. Maybe technology art just another work and job they can do.
I think the formation of individual’s gender when they go into the technological world and also how the technological culture creates different gender position are interesting relation to look at.

18 January Friday

19 January Saturday
I was suppose to go to the Art and Immaterial Labour conference in tate Britain. But the place is sold out. I learnt more about this Italian political activist called Antonial Nigre who co wrote the book about globalisation- Multitude.
I went to the Chelsea library and read some interesting books:
Mute, Vol 2 # 6 Culture and Politics After The Net, Art market: a boom without end? Liquidity, critique and the art market by Suhail Malik
Feminist Review: 87 Italian Feminisms
Digital creativity, very boring magazine
Framework N.7 June 07, Nordic Nationality in Context
Flash Art, a contemporary art magazine

I went to sing Karaoke in lucky voice at night for Rebecca’s birthday. I don’t know how to use the song ordering machine. At the end of the 2 hour session, we spend 200 pound… and before the Karaoke, I olderd fancy creamy and burry cocktail in soho theatre bar also take away snack that worth 30 pound or something.

20 January Sunday
I visited sherry. Victor and I made a compost together in the garden. We take the rocks out of the garden and planted some tulips. Nicole said she is studying in goldsmith to be a art administrator. There are some Chinese, Taiwanese woman in her class that also study curation. I would like to make friend with them.
I start to went into study of art theory
Joe invited me to david’s house party in bow. I was very rude to a techno girl at some point. At night I meet up with elisha, anna and Sandra in gorge and dragon.

21 January Monday -----this week I have a very slow process on dissertation research
cultural policy course. Am I going to learn more about the Art Business?
Strange contemporary art world…
David Hesmondhalph, The cultural industries

22 January Tuesday
I done more research online on Frieze Art Fair and had think through the value/purpose of art. And find Lynda’s essay about the film Piano on Internet, it includes- ethnicity, femininity, class, film studies, colonialism.
Elisha and anna have a drag king performance in bar wotever. Meet up with ama and that is the last time I saw her.

23 January Wednesday
cultural debate, crazy activism stuff. Melanie Gilligan: risk http://www.metamute.org/en/Re-distributing-the-Re-distribution-of-the-Sensible in contemporary art (how the hell this book come into my reading list?)After work at 7pm, I got very lonely, I went to sainboury to get some toilet paper and I found a book Art Theories for Beginners in a small waterstone on oxford street. I stay until the book shop is closed at 9. I bought that book and went to another bigger waterstone that open until 10, I found the exhibition catalogue of Frieze art Fair.

24 January Thusday
had a dissertation workshop with Lesley. She gave us some criteria on how to assess a dissertation, which I found quite useful.
I am very absorbed in reading Art Theories for Beginners,
There are some art theories I would like include in my dissertation. A reading list grow from this book will later on be summarized.

25 January Friday
Stay home all morning to read, go to camberwel college to check email and Frieze Art info. And went to barbican gallery for sex and seduction exhibition. I found it difficult to accept that so many artwork about sex are displayed out of its context in a serious manner and the sex-art become the uber attraction. Losing the tenderness of meaning and brutality of the society which try to suppress them.

26 January Saturday


29 January Tuesday